Sometimes you have to make choices and you may look back in the future and wonder what if you have made a different choice? How will your life be different?
Wonder but don't regret!
Think hard and careful and thorough and take all the time you need.
Today, I turned down a job offer knowing that it wouldn't be something I will be 100% happy with.
And I feel great! Now I'm more certain of what I want to do and I'm sure I will find the best fit somewhere. Sure when I feel useless and jobless again I will look back and wonder but I will never regret my decision.
Hahaha come life I'm totally ready!
Random side note, some joker text me to ask if I want to work in IMH (Institute of Mental Health). Seems dubious but made my day. Funny max. Thank you stranger! Just dont let it be some scam that can stalk all my security codes and no just by a few texts. Not trying to be mean or mock IMH but the whole conversation flow sounded suspicious and when I asked to call, person claims that he's in a meeting and it's not convenient.
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Tuesday, 3 February 2015
Friday, 14 November 2014
Weekends
The dilemma when you want to go out because you don't want to miss out on all the happenings in life but at the same time wants to stay home and do nothing after a long week of working.
Too short for everything.
Haiz.
Too short for everything.
Haiz.
Thursday, 30 October 2014
Time to move on.
Hasn't been a good one right from the start.
When things are giving you too much unhappiness then maybe it's really time to move on.
And when you are unhappy, everything around you seems to be against you.
Lady luck becomes your nemesis.
So her BFF rotten luck took her place.
On the bright side, it helps to make decision making easier. TIME TO MOVE ON!
But still really thankful for good friends, good food, good drinks, good health, good nights, good air (not really with the PSI level escalating). Reminds me I have a friend's father who will always update the daily PSI level over their family whatsapp group. Like some weather forecast man. Mad hilarious. But he's just genuinely concerned about the family's health. Loving father is loving regardless of the way he shows his love for the family.
Shall do a post on my Gold Coast Trip soon. Beach. Sun. Babes. Hunks. Seagulls. Kangaroos. Koalas. Good friend. Because writing about happy stuff should make me happy.
When things are giving you too much unhappiness then maybe it's really time to move on.
And when you are unhappy, everything around you seems to be against you.
Lady luck becomes your nemesis.
So her BFF rotten luck took her place.
On the bright side, it helps to make decision making easier. TIME TO MOVE ON!
But still really thankful for good friends, good food, good drinks, good health, good nights, good air (not really with the PSI level escalating). Reminds me I have a friend's father who will always update the daily PSI level over their family whatsapp group. Like some weather forecast man. Mad hilarious. But he's just genuinely concerned about the family's health. Loving father is loving regardless of the way he shows his love for the family.
Shall do a post on my Gold Coast Trip soon. Beach. Sun. Babes. Hunks. Seagulls. Kangaroos. Koalas. Good friend. Because writing about happy stuff should make me happy.
Sunday, 5 October 2014
Quarter life crisis
Feeling it. Every aspect of life. Everyday.
Everyday I question myself what I want to do for life? What are my passion? Where is my faith? What are my goals? Where am I heading? Which direction to head towards? Am I making the right decision?
This empty and vulnerable feeling:(
So much insecurity and confusion.
Sunday, 28 September 2014
20 facts about my life
Everyone is tagging each other to do this on instagram, some on Dayre.
Shall do one about myself on this blog. #20factsaboutmyself
So here goes:
1) I guess I was a happy child since young. My kindergarden teachers used to call me "Kai Xin Guo" because I was smiling and laughing so much all the time, direct translation meaning a happy nut. (The real English translation is just Pistachios)
2) I really enjoy drawing though I'm not that good at it. Sourcing for a good art class.
3) I had my first crush at the age of 5 #loveknowsnoboundary #definitelynotage #notreally
4) I enjoy watching horror or gore movie. ALOT! haha sadistic I know but I think im hooked on the thrill.
5) The country I want to visit most is really India. If not for safety concerns, would have packed my bag and left. Love exotic places.
6) Want to go on a backpacking trip on my own one day.
7) Was the typical over enthusiatic kid in school that wants to answer all the teacher's questions and volunteer with everything. No idea what I was thinking.
8) I was in Indian Dance in my Primary School days. Haha linked to the previous point. Since I like to volunteer with everything when my teacher asked who's interested, my natural instinct have to be raising up my hand! Me!
9) Used to be the tallest in class but stopped growing ever since:( Now I'm probably the shortest everywhere I go.
10) I can watch cute baby videos all day. #maternityinstinctwithin
11) Favourite kind of holidays: Sun. Beach. Friends.
13) Being hungry makes me angry. No wonder i'm destined to be fat:(
14) Love to sing but I only sound good enough for the bathroom.
15) I believe in a few good friends more than a million acquaintances.
16) I hate salesman and insurance agent.
17) I really am a half Malaysian. My mum was a Malaysian. I was born there but grew up here in Singapore.
18) Kind of delay study for a year so I'm one year older than most of my peers while growing up.
19) The most ridiculous first date I have been on is a guy telling me he loves kids and the kind of married life he yearns to have. Creepy.
20) I'm in love with Momojiri! Exotic taste again.
The end.
Ok one more, I love myself enough to want to be better and not do anything silly even when the shittiest things happen. Think everyone else should too.
Still so much more to learn and discover about myself. Wonder what my future self will think of this list few years down the road.
Shall do one about myself on this blog. #20factsaboutmyself
So here goes:
1) I guess I was a happy child since young. My kindergarden teachers used to call me "Kai Xin Guo" because I was smiling and laughing so much all the time, direct translation meaning a happy nut. (The real English translation is just Pistachios)
2) I really enjoy drawing though I'm not that good at it. Sourcing for a good art class.
3) I had my first crush at the age of 5 #loveknowsnoboundary #definitelynotage #notreally
4) I enjoy watching horror or gore movie. ALOT! haha sadistic I know but I think im hooked on the thrill.
5) The country I want to visit most is really India. If not for safety concerns, would have packed my bag and left. Love exotic places.
6) Want to go on a backpacking trip on my own one day.
7) Was the typical over enthusiatic kid in school that wants to answer all the teacher's questions and volunteer with everything. No idea what I was thinking.
8) I was in Indian Dance in my Primary School days. Haha linked to the previous point. Since I like to volunteer with everything when my teacher asked who's interested, my natural instinct have to be raising up my hand! Me!
9) Used to be the tallest in class but stopped growing ever since:( Now I'm probably the shortest everywhere I go.
10) I can watch cute baby videos all day. #maternityinstinctwithin
11) Favourite kind of holidays: Sun. Beach. Friends.
13) Being hungry makes me angry. No wonder i'm destined to be fat:(
14) Love to sing but I only sound good enough for the bathroom.
15) I believe in a few good friends more than a million acquaintances.
16) I hate salesman and insurance agent.
17) I really am a half Malaysian. My mum was a Malaysian. I was born there but grew up here in Singapore.
18) Kind of delay study for a year so I'm one year older than most of my peers while growing up.
19) The most ridiculous first date I have been on is a guy telling me he loves kids and the kind of married life he yearns to have. Creepy.
20) I'm in love with Momojiri! Exotic taste again.
The end.
Ok one more, I love myself enough to want to be better and not do anything silly even when the shittiest things happen. Think everyone else should too.
Still so much more to learn and discover about myself. Wonder what my future self will think of this list few years down the road.
Wednesday, 17 September 2014
Difficult decision
To quit or to stay.
Such a difficult decision to make.
More or less made up my mind.
So it's a matter of when.
Such a difficult decision to make.
More or less made up my mind.
So it's a matter of when.
Tuesday, 16 September 2014
Money Loaner
Do my face look inviting to people needing some extra cash? As kind as I may look, I compassion is not limitless. Plus I am freaking not rich at all. So if you are thinking of borrowing money from me, wrong target!
Seriously, tell me you have no parents, grandparents, relatives, family? Or cant you get your significant other for help? no girlfriend, no boyfriend, no husband or wife? Dont you even have a close friend? close neighbour? No? No one? Then I think there must be something very wrong with you. It's really quite sad that you have no one to turn to for help you must come and approach someone you hardly know. Or someone you haven't been in contact for ages. Then maybe you deserve the state that you are in. Or maybe you are so naive that you believe that we are BFF just because I talk to you? Grow up! The world doesn't work like that. And anyway if you really need money, you think of something! Don't even be in that situation in the first place. Not go the easy way and start borrowing around!
It's not that I'm not willing to help. I would generously lend my friend if my family or good friends are in need of it. Or I could donate it to the needy. But I'm certainly not going to give it away like that. GET AWAY FROM ME SUCKERS.
Seriously, tell me you have no parents, grandparents, relatives, family? Or cant you get your significant other for help? no girlfriend, no boyfriend, no husband or wife? Dont you even have a close friend? close neighbour? No? No one? Then I think there must be something very wrong with you. It's really quite sad that you have no one to turn to for help you must come and approach someone you hardly know. Or someone you haven't been in contact for ages. Then maybe you deserve the state that you are in. Or maybe you are so naive that you believe that we are BFF just because I talk to you? Grow up! The world doesn't work like that. And anyway if you really need money, you think of something! Don't even be in that situation in the first place. Not go the easy way and start borrowing around!
It's not that I'm not willing to help. I would generously lend my friend if my family or good friends are in need of it. Or I could donate it to the needy. But I'm certainly not going to give it away like that. GET AWAY FROM ME SUCKERS.
Thursday, 11 September 2014
Eldest sibling's ego
I have a kid sister and a kid brother. We get along and I love them most of the time. Most. I can tolerate most things but not when they raise their voice at me! That's my trigger point. I snap when they do that.
Today is one of such day. My sis have to scream at me cos I wore her shirt?! Damn selfish and damn rude. So calculative then I should start labelling everything that I bought for the house? Wtf. Super pissed just now.
Call me old fashioned. But I really feel that they should respect me as an elder sibling. In the midst of our exchange of screams, the sister told me so what if you are older? Don't make you anymore senior. Seriously I have 3 more years of rice in my tummy than you bitch. And I could have stomp you out of my sight when you were a baby! Show me some respect.
Is it just me? Or do all the eldest sibling feel the same way? The eldest sibling ego.
Monday, 1 September 2014
Like. Or not.
If I'm even asking myself, maybe the answer is not so much.
Have been thinking for a bit. Truth is I don't even know what I really want.
I just hope I don't hurt anyone in the process.
Confusing confusing.
Heck and leave the thinking for tomorrow!
Just done with work. First time I'm so determined and enthusiastic to complete anything out of work time. Gonna be totally zombie mode tomorrow:(
Have been thinking for a bit. Truth is I don't even know what I really want.
I just hope I don't hurt anyone in the process.
Confusing confusing.
Heck and leave the thinking for tomorrow!
Just done with work. First time I'm so determined and enthusiastic to complete anything out of work time. Gonna be totally zombie mode tomorrow:(
Monday, 18 August 2014
Sian
S-I-A-N
The Singaporean slang of saying bored, lethargic, no motivation, disgusted by the dullness of life.
It has so become my go to word. All day all time. It's something that will blurt out of the mouth without even thinking. Let's see for the past one yr, my everyday kind of goes like work home work home work class home weekend work home work class home and repeat. Add in some hanging out with friends, some drinking and chilling. But still it don't seem to satisfy me. Even when my whole day schedule is fully packed, I still feel so empty.
Where do I find my meaning in life:(
Friday, 4 July 2014
Letter to a stranger
Dear stranger,
I hope you are happy and content with where you are in your life right now.
If you are not, you will eventually. You are probably like me feeling lost and direction-less. I believe I will find mine one day, find the contentment within my own life. Do the things I love to do everyday. Develop a hobby. Or find my passion. Then I can be the best version of myself for myself and for the people around me.
I hope you will can find your direction, your passion, and discover the things that you love and want to do.
I hope you are happy and content with where you are in your life right now.
If you are not, you will eventually. You are probably like me feeling lost and direction-less. I believe I will find mine one day, find the contentment within my own life. Do the things I love to do everyday. Develop a hobby. Or find my passion. Then I can be the best version of myself for myself and for the people around me.
I hope you will can find your direction, your passion, and discover the things that you love and want to do.
Xoxo,
Ash
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